2015... Mid-Life Reinvention

More than a year has passed since our umrah, and I really missed being there. It may seemed irrational and weird, but one of the ways that I overcame this feelings of 'missing', 'taqwa', 'taubat' and 'love' is through watching the Makkah scenes of the Malaysian drama Adam Dan Hawa.

Adam Dan Hawa is fictional but the portrayal and the emotions it evoke resonate within me. 

Dear Allah, please guide me in making the best decision for me and my family without compromising on the quality of our life - physically, emotionally, financially and spiritually. You have given me many signs and yet I deliberated and procrastinated. 

For that, please forgive me, please have mercy on me, please strengthen my faith and my actions to be closer to you. Amin YRA.