Thursday, May 08, 2008

My destiny?

I wonder what my destiny is. Perhaps I shouldn't think too much as it's probably 'maktub' (it's written)

I'm in the middle of reading The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. And I'm not done yet.

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I never expected to be living in rental houses, at least not in Singapore, my birth country.

When we were holidaying in Melbourne back in 2005, we bumped into a Malay family who were formerly from Singapore and had made Melbourne home. The husband had become an Australian citizen but the wife was still a PR. The wife told me that prior to the husband becoming a citizen, they had lived in rental homes for about 10 years. Only after the husband had changed his citizenship and withdrew his money from CPF, they bought their very own abode in Melbourne.

10 years living in rental property! That sounds quite right. But for the fact that I'm Singaporean, living in my own birth country - putting up in rental houses don't seem quite fit the profile of the typical Singaporean family. And I don't own any property either. Well, perhaps we are not so typical after all.


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This has made me think about my destiny. I don't think I am destined to live in a rental home indefinitely. Yes, we have given ourselves deadline. But before we even get to that deadline, the landlord has decided to change our destiny again but increasing the rental ...

This has made me feel very perturbed. The high cost of rental vs the high cost of owning a home in Singapore. Everything is $$$-driven. Even the price of rice has increased 100%, but not our salary.

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Could I be a businesswoman with a successful business? That's a destiny I'm thinking. But I'm fearful to embark on the unknown.

"...I'm going to hold on to what little I have because I'm too insignificant to conquer the world" p41

I just don't know and not ready to take any risks!

"I'm just a tiny speck of dust in this whole wide world." That's me saying.

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Ok I'm back to my old real world...let me finish The Alchemist first.

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